Updates?

Woah, my last post was on February, i got tons of things to update about myself !!

Let's see.. 

16th March 2013 ( Sat )

I patch things up with my ex and clear the air between us, after 1 year later..

We met up once again, and pour out our feelings to each other honestly. 

How have we been living for the pass 1 year & what improvement & achievement we have done.

And, how are we going to apologize to people that we have disrespect..

26th April 2013 ( Fri )

For some reasons, i packed stuffs that i need and move over to stay with my boyfriend.

I know what i'm doing was selfish and it's definitely wrong, but still i did it..

Having conflict with my family, on how disgraceful, disrespected i am to the family..  

20th - 23rd May 2013 ( Mon - Sat )

Both of us went on a trip to Malaysia Genting & had a great time!!

25th - 26th May 2013 ( Sat - Sun )

I found out, am pregnant and i have no intention of going for an abortion.

My boy reaction was so..cute but at first i was stun? because.. i threw away the pregnancy kit into the bin right after i test finish then off i go to the kitchen and grab some drink.

After i came back from the kitchen, i got no idea why i would stare into the bin and i realize that the kit went missing.. the colour cap: striking pink so it's very hard not to get your attention. 

The moment i look up, i saw him squatting on his bed staring on the table for a long time.. i just tell him to throw away there is urine on it.. he say it's OK and he kept the kit in his drawer!!! this happens on the 26th too when i test again.. the kit went missing again, and saw him staring at his table again doing the same stuff.. kept the kit back in the drawer.. 

27th May 2013 ( Mon )

We went to the clinic and do the test again, it's positive.

During the evening, both kits reappear, and held a 7 days mini - exhibition on his desk.. can see from his face that he is extremely happy!! 

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I know he is very happy about the baby, but is he ready to be a father..? I don't want him to regret later and say something like.. he ask me to be his wife just because of the baby and he have the responsibility to take care of, since he is the father.. After all, we did break off before, i didn't want him to regret and got tied down just because of responsibility, if not both of us won't be happy in the future if we were to struggle to maintain our relationship just because of our baby.

Right after he lift his eyes off the kit, he looked at me with a very serious look and tells me..

"Since the first time i saw you, i'm already deeply in love with you. Even though, we are apart for the past 1 year, my feelings never change even for a bit.. With or without the baby, i only want you.. ONLY YOU to be my wife. I'm very happy that we have a baby of our own."

I'm so happy when i hear about it and.. cried a bit of course.. i'm very emotional!! Still, i have the thought that.. maybe he just trying to make me happy, but actually because he need to take the responsibility..

So.. for the next 2 month, i kept ask him again and again about the same question.. i'm kind of.. irritating & annoying.. But each time he replies me with the same serious look on his face..

One month after the pregnancy test, i told my mom and sis about it... Things starts to turn slightly better? because no more talk about disgraceful stuff and now planning about the ROM.. Wedding dinner will be next year after i give birth, so that i could walk freely and more safety..

Now, i'm about 4 month plus. Next month i will be able to know whether the baby is a girl or a boy!!
My tummy don't look big at all.. more like some flabby fats that is caused by eating too much and sleep without exercise..

To my baby in tummy:

"Regardless you're a boy or girl, your parents and both sides of grandparents won't mind!! We just want you to be born into this world safe and healthy." 

Now, i wish time could go a bit more fast so that i could know the gender and do some shopping!!

But of course, i have to deal with my horrible dizziness.. Having dizzy spells even when am sitting and lying down.. I can't go out like that.. i tried many times going out when i thought am OK but after 5 - 10 mins, my world starts to spin which is very dangerous because i might knock onto something.. 

Hope the dizzy spells will go off soon, so that i could do some shopping for my baby ^^