I'm i Back to my OLD SELF?

Recently, am thinking am i back to my old self.

Cause i tend to talk more rude at home, more.. impatience or rather more easily gets irritated..

Can't really be cheerful at home.. hard.. EXTREMELY HARD!!

Our family very hot tempered at home but while we are outside OURSELVES we are perfectly NORMAL!

that's bad.. once we stick together we all get very impatience together. =.="

Many things to accomplish, hope can finish them by 2015.

Who am i? I'M ME!!

Sometime (mostly) i don't really know what that person or others is thinking..

-OR-

Is it because that person getting old? 

As if am bullying her as a junior, asking her to do this & that.

C'mon i didn't even ask you to do this & that for me..

I don't ask senior citizen to help me with things.. (OK NOT NEVER.. EXCEPT) with some advice as an adult.. 

You don't have to test me out, even if you never do it, i will do it because that's my job scope.

I'm happy with my job, i won't let your bad talk pull me down.. although i do mind sometimes.. but after awhile is will be O..K!! 

My motto: 

Even if i'm upset with anything.. awhile is fine, don't mind it for too long because its POINTLESS!

So.. i will try my best to stay happy =D -winkles winkles go away- hahahas ( just kidding )

Well, i got a fun & annoying family.. & nice friends who laugh out loud with me, who cares of what people talk about me! I'M ME!! BEING WHO I AM IS GREAT!! (except the lazy part)

今天好倒霉哦！！

今天好倒霉哦！！
Today super unlucky?!

What day is it today??

Morning the company bus left me right in front of my eyes..
Next.. the other bus left right in front of my eyes too..

Now?! Office Flood due to air con leakage!
Hope tomorrow, when we return to office we won't see a swimming pool.

what am i?

There something wrong with my walking posture.. 

13th November 

- lil sister told me that i walk like some spiritual ghost.

15th November 

- Japanese Production Manager & Auntie (cleaner) tells me that i walk like old lady.

- Shipping Coordinator says i walk like ghost & my manager realize that i walk like one.

1 person say means maybe he or she thinks only.

3 and above say the same thing means that fella they are saying got problem.

Well, when i walk my arms don't really swing much.. its always been like that since don't know when.

Don't swing i look restless.. if i trying to swing slightly a bit.. i look FUNNY! cause its like on purpose.

What should i do about it?

Attend lesson? O.O 

Do i really need to spent that kinda money?

Hope i can change all bad habits before getting another new job after this company close down.

home alone... 5?

Saturday, as usual, am always home alone.. don't really have the money to go socialize with people. & of course, not everything is about money. But you need at least the basic money to eat & watch movie?

The good news is I think my social circle enlarge a bit.. I got few more friends! from my working place =D
that is a good start right ^^ from 1 to 4!

I can't wait for 13th November 2012!! SHOPPING WITH JOVEY! muwhahahahs! mentally prepare that i going spent alot >.< its time.. to change my wardrobe, I just packed them so nice that i don't even feel like touching them.

I packed my table too.. this time I would like to maintain them, keep them clean everyday after using so that they won't turn into garbage table again.. But as for my drawer.. you can see.. er.. black forest? the insides are messy, need to pack them soon =D

Now its only November, I'm already thinking of how to pack my house during Spring Cleaning next year.
- Detergent    < Maybe
- Baby wipes < VERY Convenient
- Stock up my supplies before Eastpoint close for 1.5 yr renovation
Should be about there.. since New year Snacks not under my responsibility, i LOVE the mid-night shopping!
can't wait for Chinese new year & March for KOREA!!

Planning to get my luggage (NEW!) since i left my old one at my ex house, alot new things to buy.. pocket so going to burn but ITS WORTH IT!

Spoiler of the Day

HUHH! SPOILER OF THE DAY.. OFFICE AIR-CON?!

C'mon whats wrong with the air-con in the office.. having mood swing? 

Lucky i brought along my USB mini fan from home.. if not am so dead in the office.. Now, everyone knows that the air-con have mood swing.. we all went to get ourselves a USB mini fan.. hahahas..

Otherwise we are unable to survive in the office.. plus some more the weather having mood swing too!

I just realize that my post are getting boring! Maybe in future i go out more, i will get to post more wonderful pictures. 

Ever since that day, i play with my sister phone applications, i see that even simple dishes after some make over with the app they look WOW! really.. WOW!!! GREAT!! TASTY!! hahas 

( this isn't something new but to me it is, after all I'm just a turtle that just come out from the mountain )

All i need to do now, is to save lots of money & go for VACATION! more explore is good right? Maybe i will be more open.. & dress better? since am in auntie style or village girl style for quite a LONG TIME.

Even older people no offence, THEY DRESS BETTER THAN ME OK! the style..the fashion..

Hope i can dress well better =D i got no sense of fashion at all.. since as long its something cheap and can last long, i just wear them. But lately i tend to think more on dressing, maybe.. my sense of dressing has awaken up from a long sleep.. XD sounds like sleeping beauty or.. not.. hahas 

WISH ME LUCK! =D maybe when am success in make over i will post myself before & after =x

  

Another Sleepy Day

Once again another sleepy day, i don't get it!! I tried to sleep as early as possible but am still so tired.

Today i can even stand and sleep at work, OH MY GOSH!! That's a very bad working habit which can't happen during working hours, that can't be tolerate!

What can i do to make myself stay awake besides focusing on work, i can even fall asleep when am too focus, there is something wrong with me isn't it?

I tried eating grapes till end of work, one every 20 mins to 1 hr? but i kinda grow chubby after that.. so i guess its healthy but bad?

Wondering if i exercise more maybe.. i still can fight over the sleepiness? Idea.. there is still a small chance on exercise, should try that in future.

Can't wait to get my hands on my new phone, hope my pay won't get delay.

Can't wait for 2nd November!! going Sakura International Buffet with colleague buwhahahahahahs! 

Gyaaaaa!

Oh my gosh... i hit my knee cap real hard.. i feel like.. its going to dislocate. Its getting more pain, i can feel the sensation!

I'm still so young but am acting like an old old woman.  >_<"

Hope the blue black won't grow so big, since the impact area quite big. *sob*

I've to stop Grumbling!

I think i grumble too much about my life whenever i see someone i can talk to, feels like am talking about me when am able to talk.. I think i need more social life, i need to talk more, be more happy so that i won't grumble my life away..

But every time when i start to do that, i will think of "SHIT! i did it again..". I didn't mean to, just kind of upset that i feel transparent. Although no one tells me to stop, maybe am sensitive but i can feel that "o there she goes again" that kind of feeling.. They are so good that they didn't stop me from complaining.. *sob*

I guess i have to start thinking positive before more negative come out, which is very bad!! I know its bad! I can't really control it BUT.. i'm willing to try.

I think i need to adjust back my sleeping time, i read too much romance comic that i don't feel sleepy.
But when is comes to day time am total zombieh.. i have to stop reading although they are so nice to read!!

Suddenly the work i enjoy most turns hell, due to lack of sleep. *FIGHTING! FIGHTING!*

IT'S FRIDAY~!

WOOHOO~! ITS FRIDAY!!!

I'm so happy, parents coming back on the following Monday! This week i'm so exhausting, although i sleep around the same time everyday.

Being a MOM is so hard & tired, i know that.. I think my mom should really start letting things go slowly, so that we can share the housework load. She always wants to make things good for everyone but that's making her work like a bull! She isn't a bull or iron man.. even iron man knows how to enjoy his life!

Today is Friday means tomorrow i can sleep like a dead log.. without parents at home! Normally, when my parents are at home i will automatically wake up at this particular time, even though am so tired, i just can't get back to sleep. TOMORROW TIME TO RECHARGE 1 WEEK BATTERY!!!

I can't wait for next week too!! 26th October is Hari Raya Haji.. means.. ITS A PUBLIC HOLIDAY!! 

since 26th its going to be an off day.. on the 25th am going dote myself with a piece of cake with Jovey!!

Although its just a small piece of cake, its still brightens up our tired day! 

When ever we walk pass or went to four leaf, we tend to look at those cakes.. it look sooo delicious!! 

I like the strawberry shortcake.. its white, creamy, with a strawberry topping on top!! 

AWW, I CAN'T WAIT!! ( wish i can just snap my finger & am in front of the shop and its 25th Oct!! )

Plan to go Korea with my siblings next year before June, but i guess its impossible now. I'm going jobless on 2013 and as for the month still unknown, so i need to save up all the cash i have for backup. In case i got a hard time finding job, at least i got some spare cash, without having to ask parents for financial assistance.

If its planning to Malaysia, might still be possible since its a lot more cheaper since utmost 3 days trip? 

VACATION!!! WAIT FOR ME!! i want to go vacation with many people, like my family, cousin, and friends.. i want to see more outside of Singapore, i don't know why but now am more interested in.. GRAVES! those emperor graves, their histories or.. mummies?  wish me luck!

am i awesome? o.O

sometime I'm thinking.. am i "awesome" or am i disgusting.. there are many people living in my house so, there will be times that we are fighting over 2 toilets.

if i can't get to use the toilet in time, i will just leave the house in that condition.. but of course i do brush & wash my face with proper cleansing.

starting to feel gross... hohohohohos...

Warm Day

        HOT! HOT! HOT! 

WHY?! WHY does the air conditioner have to go haywire the following day after all the fixing..

can't concentrate on my work.. I FEEL LIKE SLEEPING FOR GOODNESS SAKE!! I CAN'T!

I've to stay awake at all cause, today is the last day to check things before passing on to others .

Pray that i could stay awake, without falling asleep. ( someone is watching me.. i sense it ! )

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RAWR!!! almost dose off.. normally coffee and tea is the best antidote to stay awake..
too bad that i don't touch coffee.. tea isn't working much.. sigh..
do..do i... really have to do that to keep myself awake? ( SLAP myself ?  O.O" )
1 hour & 30 mins more before work ends.. hope am able to finish it in time.. if not am doom dead
tomorrow..

I know right.. you're thinking since am so busy, why do i still have the time to blog!! I just found out that
by doing this.. I'M TOTALLY AWAKE!! AWAKE!! ( oops i repeat myself =3 )

add-on 4.22pm

          

Brand New Goals & Beginning!

おはようございます!

Quick Updates**

- Ended my Relationship on 23rd March 2012.
- Brand New Beginnings with MY FAMILY!
- Got A New Job on 2th May 2012 ( Shocking news on August 2012, Company closing on 2013 )

Since 23rd March, am still a bit depressing once in awhile and the good part is.. the feelings starts to reduce & my Relationship with my family improves ( maybe? because i don't have a boyfriend? )

NEVER QUARREL with your family because of your boyfriend UNLESS they are being super ridiculous.
By the end of the day, your family will always be by your side.

Oh, and NEVER be a kind soul to sign anything that will make you fall into some crisis. THINK BEFORE YOU ACT! if not, end up your family will be the one helping you to clean up the mess.
( For those with Good Family, NO offence.. )

New Targets**

- Savings for Diploma

- Gain more Self Confidence

- Improve my English & Speaking

- Braces? 

- Explore other Countries

When I started working, I've been thinking a lot, with my certificate I can't really get a good pay from work.

Everyone knows this, everything revolves around money. ( well almost but not all.. ) 

I hardly survive myself, what if I plan to have a family in the future? Kids? How am i going to feed them?

Questions popping up in my brain, this makes me think of improving myself to get a better pay.

But of course study is for myself, good for me not just for the pay.

There is a need to gain self confidence in myself & speaking. I can't even speak up properly. 

( I speak like.. Hey! am the next target for your bullying.. ) THIS IS BAD! VERY BAD!

I can't even type a proper E-mail! you can see tons of grammar mistakes, spelling mistakes.

You might be reading a clueless mail, even though the main points are there. 

SO... improve my English is definitely needed.
( the good thing is.. this BLOG function have spelling correction! )

Braces? yea I.. might need it. Gaps within it makes some airy sound? I startled people many times, because.. of my foot steps and airy~ voice.. ( so sorry for those who startled *sob* ) 

& I can gain some confidence through my appearance.

VACATION IS GOOD! you will get to see different kinds of things & you might gain some knowledge you might never see in books, see the world with your own eyes, NOT by knowing them through the books!

( am not saying that books are bad, some information are good to obtain through books ^^ ) 

Cheers! Good luck with my Targets!